I’m just so angry!
…But I do not hate Thee
He promised to take care of me
He vowed to hold my hand
Where is He when I need him
In the moments I can’t stand
I am doing everything I ought to
I’ve tried to be the best damned Jew
I bust myself in the morning
When everyone else is still snoring
I push late into the night
I bare my soul in times of plight
Is it unfair to expect a reply?
Do You want me not to try?
I am suffering down here!
I’m bedridden with paralyzed fear
I’m in so much pain, have so much hurt
I’m asking for some peace, not even mirth
For all of Your Scripture I heed
And Your history of help and speed
In hysterics, I’ll beg and I’ll plead
But I see no hint of being freed
Am I not worthy?
Don’t You want me?
Am I just dirty?
Do I disgust Thee?
I spread Your Holy Word
I express feats of Your Glory
I try to help Your herd
Then why is my path thorny?
I’d be a downright fool
To deny the existence of You
But I was a promised a 2-way relationship
I gotta say, G-d, I’m hating this